I have random thoughts; does that make me crazy?? I don't think it does... Maybe the thoughts may be crazy, but does that make me as a person crazy... or one who just expresses each impulse though written or spoken word.. no matter what the subject may be...
Here is a taste of what I think in some cases... People will judge regardless, but just check it out and let it be thought provoking....
So frustrated with myself; wondering why I'm not changing; It's frustrating to know that I'm remaining the same. I keep playing this game with no strategy. It seems like I have an allergy to consistency. Trying to get everything in order, but the half of me is out of order and not on the same page and these regrets are cutting sharper than blades. And it impossible to change the pages when they are stuck together because the ink is still wet and the words are smudged so I can't read so I'm living life irresponsibly because there are no directions. I'm like a link with no Internet connection; so I don't work i feel crazy listening to G-d, the devil and me. And this flesh will be the death of me. I feel dead already. The Holy Spirit gets me because I feel it in me.. But I'm empty; somethings tempt me... Trying to kill me.. This is the mind of the crazy think. Not the mind of the crazy. But my thoughts are racing and running. Non-stop. Miles and miles of thoughts. These things controlling me and I have a say in everything. I let myself be manipulated by my flesh... I allow the most and accept the half. That's all; just do the math, my mind has done it. I know it all. The subtraction and the constant additions and the constant submission to all the wrong things and not the right; the wrong that keeps me up all night. There is no night light because I keep dimming the light and blocking my blessings there goes sin calling me again and I keep choosing to answer the call but I reject G-d's call..This tragic masterpiece... I feel the fall is coming...
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